Stupid Stupid Doctor!

Okay, I know part of why I'm so pissed at her right now is because I've let my annoyance fester a little today, so things probably seem worse than they are. But damn it, once I'm done with this having a baby thing I don't think I'll ever see her again. Last week I had an appointment for 3:00 on Thursday. I used 1.5 hours of sick leave to drive an hour to the doctor's office when I was exhausted because I haven't been sleeping well because my hips hurt when I lie down too long and I get up to pee every two or so hours. When I get there (a bit late, I'll admit) the office was locked up for the day. So I sat in the lobby of the hospital and cried for an hour. I know there are a lot of worse things that could be happening, and in the grand scheme of things, a missed appointment is no big deal, but my patience is kinda thin right now.

So I call the office the next day to figure out what happened and the girl who answered said that the appointment had been canceled. So I asked why no one called me, and she had no idea, and agreed that they should have and was appropriately appalled at what happened and we scheduled me a new appointment for today and she said she'd make sure my doctor know about this.

So today I go to my appointment and we have the fun little exam, and I asked my doctor if she knew why my appointment was canceled and nobody called me. She explained that they canceled all the afternoon appointments because there was an emergency that needed tending to, but she was there and watched them call everyone on her list. Then she said, "It must have been a mistake, no one would have done that intentionally or maliciously. Are you on my list?" Okay, I wasn't trying to imply that there is a devious little Imp in her office canceling people's appointments at random to watch the chaos ensue. Of course it was a mistake, but she basically said, "But it was just a mistake, so it's okay." No, it's not okay! And, how the hell am I supposed to know whether or not I'm on her "list"? I said I don't know. She said that, as strange as it sounds, there are some people that aren't on her list because they just know to come in. So I want to know then, (and I didn't think to ask until much later, of course) do those not-list people just know not to come in too? She did eventually apologize, but it was more, "Oops, my bad" than sincere apology.

Then she started in on the inducing again. "I bet you are just so ready to have that baby. Are you sure you still don't want to induce?" Yes. I'm sure. Why do I need to induce? While I am very ready to have this baby, I'm still a week away from my due date. But when your doctor comes into the exam room and the first thing out of her mouth is, "Are you still pregnant?" and then she keeps putting on the pressure to induce, it really does make you feel a good week or two further along that you actually are. Then she tells me that she's going on vacation starting Thursday and coming back the following Friday, and I'd better not have the baby while she's gone. *Sigh* I understand that as an obstetrician if you're going to take any vacations, you'll probably be doing it over somebody's due date. Probably several somebodies. But damn it! Thanks for springing that on me! No, I'm not inducing to fit neatly on your daily planner! I want the most natural childbirth experience I can get, because it will feel so much more personal, and not like a medical procedure. Also, most people I've talked to (including the instructor for the labor and delivery class we went to) say that an induced labor can be a lot harder because your body wasn't given the chance to prepare. I hope the baby is born while she's gone, so her partner catches the baby, because I'm sick of her.

When I got home I looked around on the interweb for ideas on home induction remedies, because I am ready to have this baby and I am sick of waiting. Then I noticed that most of the people and sites and things were talking about inducing after the due date. That's when occurred to me that I'm not being really slow. I'm still right on schedule. There's really nothing to make a fuss over. In fact, according to most sites, most babies are born after their due dates, not a week before. So while I still really would like this baby to get here just as soon as she can, it's still okay if she takes a week or even two. My own doctor is making me feel rushed rushed rushed, and there's less than no reason for that. However, either I'll go into labor naturally before Thursday and I'll be happy with that, or I'll go into labor naturally while she's gone and I'll be happy with that too, or she'll get back on the 31st and want to induce shortly thereafter because she doesn't like them going past 41 weeks (that's when she considers the danger zone to begin). Even the last scenario is acceptable because I'll actually be a week late, and much more open to the idea at that point.

I'm sorry all my posts are stupid long. Apparently, if I have anything to say at all, I have a lot to say. Thank you for your patience.