Sunday, October 10, 2010

An odd quiet moment

The girls are both freshly scrubbed, in clean diapers and jammies and sound asleep in their beds. It's very cathartic, really.

I think I may have lost 5 pounds. I've been trying really hard lately to watch what I eat. I've been shaped like a different person pretty much since my 3rd trimester with Lillian, and I'm tired of this new me. I'm just taking it a day at a time, when I think about eating something with no nutritional value, I take a moment to decide how much it's worth to me, is it worth waiting that much longer to be shaped like myself again? Occasionally the answer 'yes' and that's okay. It's okay, because it's only occasionally, and so far in the past couple of weeks I have at no point given up. There's no reason to. I start over again every day. Sometimes I start over again by the hour. I can do that. I made up the rules. So, now the needle on the scale is sometimes on the left side of 150, instead of the right. (It's amazing how much you can fluctuate in a day.) It's just a start, but it is also very cathartic.

2 Comments:

At 8:14 PM, Blogger Jeremy said...

You're not the only one trying to get the scale to show less than a certain number. I think it's good you've got a set of rules you're flexible with too. Good to see an update. d

 
At 1:50 AM, Anonymous Amy said...

Congratulations, Bridget! I check your blog all the time for updates on your beautiful family, and I'm happy to hear everyone's clean, happy, and asleep.

And props to you for your own regime that works for you. It's a healthy way to go about it - it's all about those little decisions every single day.

If you have time, look at Mindless Eating. It's an amazing book - he does all these really interesting experiments related to food and how people choose food and food cues - the shape of the glass affects how much you drink - all sorts of interesting things. And if no time, no worries. Just keep being yourself and you'll be back to looking like yourself soon. You can do it!

Lovelovelovelovelovelove and miss you lots,

amy

 

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